Still down a bit

7.36pm. Watching Masterchef with family. Full of Pizza Capers - got to be happy with that. New chorizo/scallop pizza was yum-my. Declan finished Moggill Uniting daycamp today - had a great time, particularly after his team won everything, mainly thanks to an ex-army adult helper who proved a wiz at constructing the gunya out of palm leaves etc. Some people are pretty competitive, aren't they?
Felt a bit sad this afternoon. Cue: sad music and pathetic comments to follow.
Reasons: a)Knee was hurting a bit.
b) concerned about knee operation on Tuesday.
c) concerned about work still needing to be done before school restarts.
d) generally sad about my lack of application and work ethic in recent days.
e) angry that I had to spend hours doing household tasks like trip to the dump and day camp closing today (I realise how selfish this one is.)
f) annoyed we had to take 3 friends home from day camp today (see above re: selfishness)
g) generally hungry and thirsty. (pause now for drink - that's salty pizza for you)
h) some strange lower back pain - annoyed at posture and home seats which probably contribute. Annoyed in light of chiropractor visit on Wednesday night. Annoyed further at having to spend money on chiropractors.
i) annoyed that friends we ferried home from daycamp are much wealthier than us. They have come back from a family holiday skiing down south, and are off tonight to the Gold Coast prior to running in the Gold Coast marathon tomorrow. Further annoyed that this guy can spend so much time away from family training for marathon, apparently without resentment from said family. Annoyed about our lack of money. (Am really getting pathetic now.)
j) after visit to financial planner today, annoyed that I didn't have all the documents to hand which I should have had - further annoyed at my lack of good filing downstairs to make this easier to follow. Annoyed that we are not in a better financial position after so many years, but admittedly we have been on basically one income for many years, have two children, etc. At least this guy (yet another new face) sounds solid - even suggesting it was possible to run our investments ourselves! Points for honesty!
k) annoyed at not making more money from OzLotto and then blowing it all on a ticket for the Powerball jackpot last night, which nobody won. Why am I wasting money chasing the big one? Must not go down the path of a gambling problem on top of everything else.
l) concerned about Phil and Jo's mediation session this afternoon. Fingers crossed that things went OK and nobody stormed out etc. Will call Phil tomorrow sometime to see how it went. What a saga - I realise I am now of the age when some friends will start separating / divorcing but this one is looking particularly harsh.

There may have been other things as well, but that's a pretty good start. Will have an iceblock and start doing more schoolwork. Mad Men's final two episodes last night were excellent viewing, so that cheered me up a bit. Weird Al Yankovic clips on Youtube are also a good source - hope to use some in my Year 10 English satire unit this semester. Pray for a good sleep tonight - need to go to bed at 10 if possible, I reckon. My bedtime novel, Breath by Tim Winton, is going very well - memories of my amateur efforts at surfing brought to mind and he really is impressive in his descriptive skills. Ciao now.